It's been a sad week. My dad took another down turn with his memory. I have a hard time going to visit him. It just makes me want to cry every time and I hate seeing him the way he is. When I am away from him, I mourn him. When I see him, all the sadness, worry and pain comes right back. What do I do?
Recently, my mom is having a really hard time with the reality that my dad is basically gone and . He is still here physically but he doesn't really know who anyone is anymore. She is missing him so bad and wishes she can just have one last dance with him. She has been listening to Barry Manilow recently and all of his romantic lyrics are bringing back a lot of memories for her and she just cries all the time now. She enjoys reminiscing but it's very painful at the same time. I have a hard time listening to her tell me all the stories from their past because I don't want to cry. I fight it back.
Alzheimer's is a nasty disease. Let's continue to raise the awareness.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
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Oh Krista, I wish I could give you a hug through this blog. I'm sorry to hear that your dad is declining. Each decline with my mom was such a hard step ~ it was like losing her time and time again.
I thank G*d that my dad wasn't around to see my mom suffering from Alzheimers...I think it would have literally killed him.
My heart goes out to you and your mom. I sincerely wish that there was something I could do to make it better for you. The emotions that are involved for the family members is unbelievable. It is just horribly sad to watch a loved one go through this. You are correct that it is a horrible, nasty disease. I think raising awareness is a very important thing and you are doing a beautiful job of that with your blog.
Take care.
Krista,
I know it has been forever. Please read my blog and you will understand why. I wanted to email you but I had no time.
Be strong for your Mom and your Dad. Enjoy everyday with him. The good thing is the YOU haven't forgotten him. Your memories of him are fresh... you have this blog...and you are a loving daughter.
You know his memory is gone because of Alzheimer's. He loved you with all of his heart I am sure. Hold on to the little bit of him that is left and be there for him. Cherish every moment that you have left! Every moment is precious!
xoxoxoxox
Donna
PS I hope you have been watching the Alzheimer's Project on HBO.
Thanks so much for "finding me" and stopping by. It is a nasty nasty thing and I constantly second guess myself as to whether or not I'm doing the right thing for my mother. She's happy right now and my brother is safe in his new home (don't know if you read everything...she is 80 and he is 40 with Downs Syndrome...they've never been apart). Goodness knows I need support and hopefully can give some support to others also.
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